Swallow Crystals and Laugh Prisms.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

The Groupie and The Rock 'n' Roll Lifestyle

This is it!
These are my degree project pieces in the order I began them.  It's interesting to see the progression and also where I stopped taking it farther.  Today I'm setting up my installation.  I finished sewing the pathway last night but I haven't finished sewing the room.
I need to get transparencies printed after work.
And I DESPERATELY need to find a SIM student to help me rent out lights with coloured gells.  So if any of you know anyone in SIM please please let me know.  9784573126.

∆∆❍∇∆  kisses from the underground

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

MY postcards

my favourite part:
the one i feel is like cheating:
the one that took me forever that i'm in love with:

my business cards came a couple days ago and they are out of control sexy.  sleek and just hot.  i am veryvery satisfied.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


a lil' mixtape to accompany the invitation
The Raver by The Troggs, one of my favourite bands. Reading Lester Bangs' writings about them made me crazy and now I can't have it any other way but this honest, raw, dirty way. If anyone can find "I Want You," it's worth their time.

Lekar Ham Diwana Dil by Asha Bhosle and Kishore Kumar for epically intense dancing mania

Jimmy Mack MARTHA REEVES AND THE VANDELLASszzz there's a video of twiggy dancing to this on youtube.

For fucked-up pre Love-making ridiculous seducing:
Let's Do It Again THE STAPLES SINGERS, a group who happens to include my one true love--Mavis.

Let's Straighten It Out by Latimore. it's blues/r&b from 1974.

Astral Weeks by Van Morrison of the album of the same title

and to leave it at an up:
F.U.N.K. by Betty Davis--one of my top three most amazing women of all time. get ready to have your mind DESTROYED.

postcard 90%

i'm going to hand-write my contact information.

should i leave the illuminati alone?
the stars?

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

"because you're a beautiful animal, and i'm weak"


okay, who wants to hire me?

I've progressed a lot this year. I feel like I've felt out my direction in life and it's no longer as aimless and vague as it was the first semester. Instead of just daydreaming about what i really want to do, i feel like i now i'm using the tools i have to actually make it happen. i used to know it was possible but now i feel even closer to it.
oh tura, your quote is perfect, "i never try anything, i just do it"
This is all so common sense that I feel like it's dumb to write about it, but here you go:
So what I'm going to do is move to Los Angeles in May, find a place to live and a job within 2 weeks, begin saving money to take a motorcycle safety course and then to buy a motorcycle.  I'm going to become a regular at a few clubs and find other people with similar passions, organize an old-school go-go night at a club and have the mashed potato down by then and hopefully be dancing with people that have experience with standard dances that I'm as of now still unfamiliar with so that I can expand my repertoire of movement.

I've decided that I want to be in a film. My role will include riding motorcycles, go-go dancing, and generally being bad-ass. I'm thinking like cult film--it's so bad it's good kind of genre.

I know I need to keep really busy because otherwise I'm going to fall into existential despair. I cringe at how jaded I already am about humanity. I'm uncomfortable with it and I don't want to linger on this because it will destroy me, this is why I need to live as hard as I can. If I'm living that hard I won't have the time or energy to think about this SHIT.
I want people to be too strong and I am consistently disappointed and disgusted and I get pretty depressed. It's a little easier to live in a haze of emotional numbness towards this apparent TRUTH of mass humanity, but sometimes it's more frustrating not to feel anything (even anger) than it is to live hyper-aware and painfully.
And THAT is where I am right now.


Friday, April 10, 2009

more haneous than anticipated

i'm a little ashamed.
good night.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

it's kinda boring

sketch for promotional postcard.
will be scanned for line-work, printed out, water-coloured
then will also have a second, separate existence as a prototype print.

something's wrong with it right now. i think i need to liven up the cougar's eyes and pull some elements in tighter... but I'm not sure if that's it.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

fuck you

This is the start for my invitation to my degree project installation. i'm going to print it out and write over it and probably do a drawing and then put it back into the computer with that stuff and print it out. It's at a really low resolution and i'm going to print it out small and it's going to be good eventually.

For printmaking i threw my plate in the acid and let it eat away at my etching for an hour and i'm excited to see how the stuff i saved with hard ground is gonna print. i find this process very appropriate and reflective of what's going on with me mentally regarding that situation.
you know
i'm also going to do a piece on the idea of accepting our animalistic nature, a neanderthal woman with her legs spread apart.
and i'm doing pieces that are sort of odes to my current iconography.
i also think my new header is perfect.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

who fucking pissed in my well, and more found on My Bloody Underground

Trying To Flush The Iguana Down The Toilet

I have some things for you

psychedelic rough heroin rock and roll,
someplace else unkown, by The Brian Jonestown Massacre! THIS SONG BLEW ME APART. i know it's repetitive and all, at Terminal 5 it just came across so heavy and so dirty and dark. I'm attracted to the honesty, how raw it is, he's screaming into the microphone and it's all drugged-out and i'm dancing the dirt and it's so sublime

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Promotional Postcard Decision

I had a really hard time coming up with a promotional image because I had no idea how I communicate all of me in one image.  This is kind of where I want to go, now.  The cougar is still my logo of sorts.

Inspiration/reference I will follow semi-closely:

(note triangle wall decoration)