sunspot baby

My second sketch. I'm considering having her swimming up to the surface and an orange (fruit) sun making a halo.

mermaid

1st phase sketch inspired by beluga whales and the following daydream:

i want to be a mermaid in seafoam green i want my hair to bleach until it’s nearly translucent. i want my eyelashes so light and thick that if i close my eyes your depth perception gets fucked. i want to feel good slipping into the cold and murky tirade of our moon’s patterns, i want to wash my heart, sun myself on slick rocks. i want to be half mermaid and half oranges-eating changeling. if i am a changeling then my energy and efforts and the lack of requital makes sense. then also i will have some invisible armor, woven from myth and vague playful memories. i can choose to be hard with justification because i am something that must be protected, something that must be respected, must be loved unconditionally, madly, like a poison. i am dangerous. i will be a sick siren, a scream so high-pitched that it will relentlessly vibrate against your insides, i will slowly chew and then spew venom that eats at your thickest fibers, i will be the ever-promise of eternal magic that you let go, whose spirit you destroyed almost completely (you will secretly know i have recovered ten-fold and now blossom in the freedom of my half-existence). i will be the thing you almost caught, almost tamed, almost forgot, and then lost.

i will move to my own fairytale cottage and i will get a sewing machine and hole myself up away from all the vampires. i will have a garden of herbs, fennel and basil and cilantro, lavender, and lime and orange and lemon trees,
i want to be a chlorine swimming pool mermaid, i want to be invisible under the dead leaves. i will cover my body with a mud mask and lie in my backyard and then play in the sprinkler to wash it all off.

garage soul dance night

garage soul dance night outfit

pale pink tights, orange skirt with gold chain, red/white patterned 70s tank top, and silver glitter disco platforms

concert attire for 2/26 RTX show at the Echoplex!! incl. over-sized velvet platforms.

daily wear

i'm going to start posting pictures of outfits i put together. this one's my daily wear for 1/13/11:

VIDEO

me dancing with Farflung in September.
audio is fucked-up, so turn your sound down (but not off)!


video by Shazzula

west coast strut that was as sweet as molasses

cheeseball dream i had soon after the car accident in August. going to fill out just a little bit more, then do my special process of
1. scanning
2. printing out on watercolour paper (but this time i'm going to blow up the size
3. painting
4. pen and ink


this one's close to my hear/psyche, belive it OR NOT!

ghosts of the old plains

progress on the sketch for serena's tattoo i'm finally getting on my ass to do (because i get off my ass to do everything and anything else). her phone call pushed me to get started and lack of friends and excess of loneliness pushed me to continue. I hope to finish this by the end of the week.
the visual idea is a fantastical archaic buffalo, a new mythological buffalo creature with scales and feathers.
it's helpful to see my sketch on the screen because it objectively shows me where there are problems. when i revisit this sketch i will skew the scales in a way that suggests the form of his body, move the right eye down a bit because his head is slightly tilted, and even out the horn size. everything else is going to evolve naturally.

in a (probably superficial) sense it's coincidentally appropriate that i'm beginning to reread Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee. maybe vicariously some vein of depth of connection with this land i cannot wholly rightfully claim, yet still feel, will grace this creation process.



In other news, the footage from Farflung/OGOD's Jodorowsky Bacchanal I danced at will not be released because there were camera issues. I'm still on the lookout for other footage but have yet to find any. I have been asked to dance in a studio video for them and all/any of their future gigs, so after they return from their European tour, you'll get lots more visual goodies of my liquid electric go-go!